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First Week Without Tamoxifen After 10 years

Posted by Emilienne Rebel on

First Week Without Tamoxifen After 10 years

Have I had any side effects... honest answer? I can't tell if I have or not so far. Still the same tiredness. Still the same nausea. Still the same hand joint pain. Still the same on and off headache I just can't seem to get rid of. Hmmm, but I think my anxiety has been a bit worse actually. My hormones acting up maybe? The uncertainty of coming off the drug, its withdrawals and what it means to my risk of getting cancer again more likely. I can't stop questioning what I want to do with this next chapter in my life and if I'm on the right path... and where do I want that path to lead? Overthinking... yes... can I help it? No.

One more practical aspect of coming off Tamoxifen after 10 years (and still pre-menopausal which means not going straight onto any other hormone based drugs) is that I am now 10 years cancer-free and also now not taking any serious medication which means I am in a really good place to get some life insurance for the first time. Having a mortgage and two dependents its been of some concern for me for a long time. I hope to get this sorted soon and I'll let you know if I find a good sympathetic and straight forward company!

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No More Tamoxifen! A curse and a gift...

Posted by Emilienne Rebel on

No More Tamoxifen! A curse and a gift...

Day 1 No Tamoxifen! Well it would appear that I'm really closing many doors on my cancer journey this month. Finishing off my breast reconstruction and now being discharged from my Oncologist's care and stopping Tamoxifen after 10 years of taking it! Its now I realise its been a gift and curse. Whilst its a pretty nasty drug to take to prevent Breast Cancer, it carries risks of ovarian cancer and other unpleasant side effects. I've now come full circle and am really worried about coming off the drug and how it will effect my body, my mood, my skin,...

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My Mastectomy Journey... Getting Nipple Tattoos!

Posted by Emilienne Rebel on

My Mastectomy Journey... Getting Nipple Tattoos!

On Saturday I will get Nipple Tattoos! These little cherries will literally mark the end of my very long journey of Breast Cancer, Double Breast Reconstruction. Having searched an researched a lot over the years and even contemplated a trip to the States, after a long wait I have found the perfect person to finish my nipples.  Having been surprised at every stage of the reconstruction process by how much better emotionally it made me feel (after the surgery had healed!). Restoring some of my femininity after many years with just one boob. Clothes fit me better and I have more shape. ...

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11th Birthday. 10 Year Anniversary!

Posted by Emilienne Rebel on

11th Birthday. 10 Year Anniversary!

Happy 11th Birthday my beautiful girl. 10 years since your first birthday and my second chemo where we sat and took this photo of us together. 10 years since I started to loose my hair with my chemotherapy treatment for Grade 3 advanced Breast Cancer, which eventually led to me starting to make Bold Beanies for fellow sufferers.  Lotte, I'm so incredibly proud of the wonderful, nice and caring person you have become and I'm proud to be your mummy. I'm so grateful for every singe day and snuggle we get to share together and for the way you tell...

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